Sittin' here in Kinko's/FedEx hoping that the print run of our marketing project paper comes out just how I want it. Almost makes me want to invest in a color laser printer so I can have complete control over the publishing process... Right, complete control! Who knows if this counter dude is grocking what I want, 'cause I know my requests are so vastly different and superior to anything he has ever encountered that I am challenging his little cranium (do I smell smoke? do I hear gears grinding??). Of course, my personal investment in this project is significant - my idea, my logo work, my editorializing - not to mention the buy-in of my fellow cohort members. We are all reaching exhaustion as this semester seems just to be revving up. The Sunday meetings, the individual time commitment, the intersection and juxtaposition of two master's classes, one an exercise in right-brain creativity while the other balancing on the opposite end of the see-saw jangling the mathy left-brain.
Yup, using ALL the brain this time around.
11.27.2005
11.22.2005
Happy B-Day to Me!!!
Another birthday come and gone. Very anti-climactic this year as it was overshadowed by Grandma's 80th on the following day. We all need our moment in the sun, and G-ma had a good one this year. She is basically healthy, happy and unperturbed by the tribulations of many her age. She didn't cry or fart or take her teeth out. She was witty and compelling, one of her true gifts being that of public speaking. I was glad to sit next to her and bask in the glowing compliments from her geriatric peers ("Just SO pretty"... Hmph, an intellect like mine cringes to be "pretty"). Nonetheless, a good time was had by all and it was nice to have something to keep me from dwelling on my own aging.
11.15.2005
My New Ball
This is my new office chair. When my former chair was whisked away and given to my brother, this is what I insisted on. I've been using it for a couple of weeks and it is definitely making a difference - back muscles are sore and I spend much less time skulking around in my chair and surfing. It's also fun to bounce on in moments of frivolity.
11.09.2005
Stage 2
Stage 1 & 2 of Project Incisors complete. (I didn't even report on Stage 1 (whitening) as it is so unremarkable other than the intense teeth sensitivity. But now I've pearly whites).
Yesterday found me reclining the afternoon away in the capable hands of Dr. Tom, dentist extraordinaire. The whitening took my natural teeth to brightest white and it was time for the offending 20-yr old bridge to meet its demise 'neath the spinning burr. Mouth parts fully loaded and charged with Speticaine, I drooled and gagged my way through 2+ hours of removal, impressions, grinding, scraping and packing. Am now sporting a brand new set of temps, little acrylic indicators of the monumental porcelains to come.
Upon reflecting, literally, I wonder whose mouth this is? (making chopping motions on the arm) How did I deserve these teeth? How will I be served by these teeth??
WEIRD! Probably one of the weirder happenings of my past 20 years.
Stay tuned for Stage 3 (and pics!)
Yesterday found me reclining the afternoon away in the capable hands of Dr. Tom, dentist extraordinaire. The whitening took my natural teeth to brightest white and it was time for the offending 20-yr old bridge to meet its demise 'neath the spinning burr. Mouth parts fully loaded and charged with Speticaine, I drooled and gagged my way through 2+ hours of removal, impressions, grinding, scraping and packing. Am now sporting a brand new set of temps, little acrylic indicators of the monumental porcelains to come.
Upon reflecting, literally, I wonder whose mouth this is? (making chopping motions on the arm) How did I deserve these teeth? How will I be served by these teeth??
WEIRD! Probably one of the weirder happenings of my past 20 years.
Stay tuned for Stage 3 (and pics!)
11.07.2005
Reluctant Bodhisattva
Someone much wiser about these things than I once told me I was "bodhisattva" - "...Bodhisattva practices not for her or his enlightenment alone, but for the enlightenment of all beings. The Bodhisattva vows to remain in this world of ignorance and confusion, vows to be willing to experience whatever living beings experience, until all beings are liberated."
I wasn't particularly convinced at the time because I never viewed myself as compassionate or truly altruistic. Lately I have put those "bodhi" thoughts into the hopper and have arrived at a couple of alternatives.
1) Imbued by the spirit of "bodhi" I am striving to fulfill that destiny
OR
2) The path of the "bodhi" is being enlightened to me so that I might change my kharma.
I can't decide if these two paths are mutually exclusive or complimentary - no doubt some combination, as enlightenment is rarely straightforward and uncomplicated by corollary issues. So if I am finding myself in similar and recurring situations, can I conclude that those situations are the fulfillment of my "bodhi" destiny or the chances to make change?
I wasn't particularly convinced at the time because I never viewed myself as compassionate or truly altruistic. Lately I have put those "bodhi" thoughts into the hopper and have arrived at a couple of alternatives.
1) Imbued by the spirit of "bodhi" I am striving to fulfill that destiny
OR
2) The path of the "bodhi" is being enlightened to me so that I might change my kharma.
I can't decide if these two paths are mutually exclusive or complimentary - no doubt some combination, as enlightenment is rarely straightforward and uncomplicated by corollary issues. So if I am finding myself in similar and recurring situations, can I conclude that those situations are the fulfillment of my "bodhi" destiny or the chances to make change?
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